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Day by Day by Day…

July 19, 2010

…Is how my life seems to be slipping away from me at the moment.

A few months ago I went to see a specialist in Leeds – an immunologist, no less! – who has now officially confirmed what I and my GP already knew. I have M.E.

I’m lucky in that I seem to have settled at the moderate level; the level that on a good day means you can still potter about and still manage some day to day tasks. I’ve only got to deal with the pain in my joints and muscles much of the time, the days when it hurts to hold my head up and the days where making a sandwich seems complicated. It makes a cold – the normal head kind that only last a day or 3 – last upwards of a month.

Think of it like this (and this is a very simplistic explaination); your immune system fights things off for you. Often the symptoms that make you feel bad are those caused by your body fighting the interloper rather than being caused by the interloper itself. My problem is that my immune system keeps switching itself on and attacking interlopers that aren’t there and so I get the flu like symptoms of my body fighting the flu without the virus being present.

Its taken months for it to sink in that I won’t suddenly get better next month, or that there isn’t currently a medical treatment for the illness, only management methods. With my medical history its pretty much a text book case of M.E. and over the few months, I shall hopefully be guided in how to manage the condition with pacing/graded activity.

In the mean time, I really am having to take it a day at a time. I’m just about sticking to a daily routine.

One of the things that is keeping me going is the Spoons Theory.

Written by a lady called Christine Miserandino about explaining her lupus to a friend of hers it explains very well how hard trying to cope with a “hidden” illness, can be. She has a website called butyoudon’tlooksick. My favourite part of the theory that is she would say to people that “they should feel special when I spend time with them, because they have one of my “spoons” “.

I’m doing my best to learn how to keep a spoon or two in reserve.

Just to give you an idea, this post has taken me well over a month to put into words.

I desperatly want to keep this blog going and entries may be sporadic depending on my spoon levels.

Photos will come as and when I feel up to taking them or remember to post them, but I will try and include them as often as possible.


Normal Service will return soon

November 25, 2009

I’ve been very ill the last couple of days hence no posts but am hopefully going to resuming normality soon.


Hexagon woes

October 28, 2009

I’ve just had a better look at my hexagons and around 70% of them aren’t true hexagons, so my evening will be spend taking all the tacking out to start again. 😦


WISPy Wednesday

October 28, 2009

Well, I wish I had a cacophany of things to show you but I don’t.

So far this week I’ve knitted the grand total of 1 hexagon for my blanket – its magenta (which is more purple than magenta) for anyone who is interested. I won’t bore you with yet another picture of a knitted hexagon.

My energy levels are still horribly low and I only got that knitted because now I’ve knitted 50 of them I pretty much have it memorized.

I’ve done very little crafty since my WISPless entry last week.In addition to the knitted hexagon I’ve also tacked a dozen patchwork hexagons. I was going to make a cushion but I may make a patchwork teacozy inspired by the one in this post over at HenHouse…(Yes, I am addicted to this blog…she makes me smile). I also discovered half my home made hexagon papers aren’t true hexagons…I’m gonna have to suck it up and buy a hexagon template aren’t I?

Instead of knitting I’ve been dreaming about the things I’d like to knit and sew and am currently daydreaming about cotton flannel fabric that doesn’t come in baby appropriate colours and is available on this side of the Atlantic, and learning to knit fairisle/colourwork.

I’m also dreaming of having a decent button box again with suitable contents. I have lots of shirt buttons, and a couple of nice ones, but I am feeling I lack buttons at the moment..and I need something to keep them in.

Today I have managed to organise the slow cooker for tea and will tell you about that on Friday.

I am trying to remain cheerful, I promise!

Work has begun on the defeating of the laundry mountain however, and I hope to have it sorted out soon. Plus its probably time to swap out the summer clothes for winter ones…Or at least think about it. Thats proactive, right?!


October Autumnal Musings….

October 6, 2009

As happened last year I am currently musing on all things Autumnal.

As I mentioned last time around, I am somewhat biased towards this time of year. Its the season I was born into and therefore my first experiences of the world were tinged with autumnal tones, and the need to be warm and comfortable. The newspapers reported that due to a dry year we are having an earlier autumn, but I can’t say I noticed it coming any quicker but I welcome it either way.

Its the season when the light is beautiful; tinting things golden and making them shine, where the cold in the air is just enough to make you rush back inside for a scarf and gloves, even though the sun is streaming down. Squashes, pumpkins and the autumns crops of  winter vegetables are starting to appear at the greengrocers and the leaves on the trees are starting to change. The few trees that go red are starting to do so, and the local shops have started putting thier halloween displays out.

Some people see Autumn as a melancholy time, as people become more introspective and withdrawn than during the sociable summer months, but I find that time of self reflection and preparing for winter an important part of the year. Its a time for celebrations; My birthday and those of my parents are all in Autumn; in fact they are in concecutive months!

Harvest Festival was one of the few school activities I really got involved with at primary school – I missed a lot of school – but we would do the only majorly charitable act of the year that we were expected to take part in. It was the only cross cultural event everyone at my school could take part in. I went to a very mutlitcultural school. Everyone in the school would bring in a piece of fruit or a vegetable and a tin of food. These were then put into tissue paper decorated shoeboxes, wrapped in coloured cellophane, tied up with ribbons and then they were distributed at several of the local Elderly Care Homes. It saddens me that I don’t have that small contact with my community any more…but alas I am not the church going type and even then,  in this politically correct world, I’m not sure anyone does anything like that anymore.


Tea is high in my thoughts, as is hot chocolate and I dream of having a woodburning stove to settle down in front of in the evening as the nights start to draw in. My major project this autumn/winter is my hexagon blanket and I plan to be snuggling under it by spring. My inner seasonal clock is already aware that cold weather is on its way and it has me thinking of porridge and mulled apple juice, of homemade gingerbread and of warm stews with thick chunks of homemade bread with butter on it, of scented candles smelling of cinnamon, of pumpkin lanterns, and of chai tea and gingerbread flavoured coffee.

The thoughts of curling up with  cushions and blankets is also present in my mind as is the fact I need a new hotwater bottle, and probably some more flannel pyjamas this winter.

Wouldn’t Autumn be a pretty name for someone?

I’ll leave you with Evaleen Stein’s lovely autumnal poem; November Morning.

A tingling, misty marvel
Blew hither in the night,
And now the little peach-trees
Are clasped in frozen light.

Upon the apple-branches
An icy film is caught,
With trailing threads of gossamer
In pearly patterns wrought.

The autumn sun, in wonder,
Is gayly peering through
This silver-tissued network
Across the frosty blue.

The weather-vane is fire-tipped,
The honeysuckle shows
A dazzling icy splendor,
And crystal is the rose.

Around the eaves are fringes
Of icicles that seem
To mock the summer rainbows
With many-colored gleam.

Along the walk, the pebbles
Are each a precious stone;
The grass is tasseled hoarfrost,
The clover jewel-sown.

Such sparkle, sparkle, sparkle
Fills all the frosty air,
Oh, can it be that darkness
Is ever anywhere!



September 29, 2009

My favourite actress, Romula Garai, is playing Emma in a new BBC production of Emma which starts on Sunday.

I first saw her play Celia in As You Like it and then Amelia in Vanity Fair, and then I saw her in I Capture the Castle where she was cast perfectly as Cassandra. (Yes, I know I’ve seen them completly out of the order they were made but still….)

Shes beautiful and has a certain sensibility about her that fits into period pieces so well.

I’d love to see her in Little Women (I think she’d make a wonderful Meg) or in another remake of Vanity Fair as Becky Sharp.

Am really looking forward to her take on Emma 🙂



September 29, 2009

Well, Socktoberfest is on its way:

socktoberfest button

And although I am desperate to make

Toe Socks


and Ribbon Stockings

ribbonstockings what I need to do is finish the 3 sock projects already on the needles:

Pennant Socks: M’s Birthday present


Being a birthday present these odviously have a deadline attached…which gives me just over 2 and half weeks to finish them.

Only downside…hes a man with large feet, and I’d forgotton how large. I am making comfy socks (slightly on the large size and the first of the pair is already taking most of a ball of yarn…which means I need another one….

I have got in touch with the lovely Alison at P2tog and she has some on the way so unfortunatly half his birthday present cash is going on a second ball of yarn for his socks…

The pattern is from More Sensational Knitted Socks and is called Pennant Stitch.

Its not too difficult if you follow it line by line and don’t use a multicoloured yarn like I did which means the lovely texture of the pattern is lost in the colours.

I have to admit, that I’m doing a plain foot on these socks as that section will be covered by his shoes, and the pattern takes me so long that otherwise he won’t get them till xmas.

Sideways Silky Short Socks: For Me


Using Tallulahbelles variation on this DROPS pattern which is not only a lot easier to understand but just seems to make more sense I cast on my second pair of these sideways knit garter stitch socks well over a month ago.

I’m making these on 3mm needles and have shortened them and as soon as the birthday socks are finished these are the next priority.

Industrial Rose Socklets: For Me


The first of these is finished. They are made from the left overs of my Industrial Rose Set in Araucania Ranco Multy 4 ply which I have called Industrial Rose as its shades of rose and tarnished, and smoke and soot, and so on.

Having designed on the needle and having taking lots of notes its gonna take me a while to work out what exactly it is I did on the first sock and these are going to take a while.

Hope to get these done to wear for Xmas.

Well, that appears to be a plan doesn’t it?!

Now, I just have to not get distracted by my other knitting projects!